This is probably the hardest post I’ve ever had to write. I have been putting it off for weeks!
It is no secret that I have battled my weight my entire life. It was pretty inevitable that I would always be “big”. I was always the “cute, but chunky girl” in school. My Dad is no less than 300lb at 6 foot tall, and my mom weighed almost that much my senior year in high school. She was only 5 foot tall. My mom was also born disabled. She had a crippling bone and hip disease. Her weight clearly didn’t help matters. She could hardly walk around my college campus on tour day (actually, she didn’t). I was embarrassed, she was embarrassed. And I knew I never wanted to get to that point. With the help of surgery, mom was able to turn her life around later that year. She lost over 100 pounds, and could finally semi-live the life she wanted to live, and shop at places other than Lane Bryant (she was a fashion diva)!
But again, I don’t want to get to that point.
Sadly, I find myself on my way there. I gained almost 70 pounds when I was pregnant with Elizabeth. SEVENTY. I had this whole goal of staying fit and doing the yoga and pilates videos I bought for mommys to be. And then I got hit with all day morning sickness. And then I lost mom & CJ, moved 1000 miles, completed renovated a house to move into…. blah blah blah.
I’ve only lost about 30 pounds in the 26 months she’s been born. I exclusively breastfed everything. I have done on and off exercise programs and have been running 6-12 miles a week since May. The weight is still there.
Why? because of that “on and off”. And, because I haven’t made a lot of changes in my diet. I justify everything I put in my mouth by saying, “oh, it’s organic so it’s healthy” or, “I can’t let it go to waste”, or “well, if I finish it tonight, it won’t be there to tempt me tomorrow”.
God bless my parents, they were great, but one thing neither of them had was will-power or self-control. Not an ounce. I was never taught those things as a child. My mom was addicted to food and shopping. My dad was addicted to alcohol.
But finally, enough is enough. I am sick and tired of being uncomfortable. I am sick and tired of having a closet-full of prebaby clothes I still can’t wear. I’m sick and tired of letting my size self-consciously stop me from doing things (even getting in front of the camera to do video posts for you). I am sick and tired of having to start all over because I don’t stick with my exercise routine. I am sick and tired of feeling like my husband deserves so much better. I am sick and tired of putting myself last. I am sick and tired of having a “pretty face”, and a less than pretty body. I am sick and tired of the fears that Elizabeth won’t have her mommy because her mommy didn’t take care of herself. I am sick and tired of being another statistic in America’s war on obesity!
I refuse to be sick and tired any longer. I will become my own walking billboard. I will show Elizabeth self-control and will-power! I will prove to her that anything is possible with hard work. I will give my husband the “hot” wife he deserves, and most of all, I will bless them both with a long-living, healthy mama and wife!
Enter: Project Transformation!
I have decided that since our life is finally back on track, that I will focus more energy on me! It is my goal to lose 78lb before August 1, 2013. Don’t freak out, I know that sounds like a lot of weight, but it is least I need to lose to be right where I need to be for a “normal” BMI.
I will be sharing much much more about my why and how in a later post
(I’m telling you, this is hard stuff to share)!
I can tell you that I plan on using my own Shaklee Cinch products to fuel my “diet”. And I will be exercising at least 30 minutes a day for 6 days a week. You already know I love the products. I just have to stick with the “Cinch Plan” and NOT the “Jaima Plan”. If you would like to join me, they are actually having a huge special right now (buy 3 months, get the 4th month free)! Email me for extra product specials exclusive for the transform project!
Be sure to follow me on facebook so that you catch all of my upcoming posts about this! I have a lot to share with you! A lot of good things! Including how I can help you start your own transformation!